Felt so out of place.
I made it through my first holiday with my family but felt so out of place. My father, sister and brother were all drinking and having so much fun, laughing and conversing with eachother. I just sat there and felt as if I didn't exist to them, then a feeling of depression came over me I almost started crying but went in another room.
I feel so disconnected from my family since I stopped drinking. I almost gave in last night. Why do I feel more lonely when I'm not drinking? I miss having a good time. Is this how it's going to be all the time? This is difficult. Thank you for listening
Theresa