No need to apologize, Tam, we're here to walk with you good days and bad.
Something that helps me is to say a prayer and tell God that I need His help. Just asking, helps me feel better.
All you can do, all any one of us can do, is the best we can. Beyond that is out of our hands.
He cannot intimidate you unless you let him. Stand tall, state your feelings and know that your concerns are valid and that hopefully the law will be on your side.
Big hugs because you sound like you could use them.
