Hey idreamblue!!
You are in the right place!! You will find lots of support here. I am a newbie myself, so I totally relate to the feelings of confusion regarding alcoholism and how it affects our lives. There are many wonderful and wise folks on this forum- their advice and suggestions are invaluable! They will be along, in the meantime cruise around this forum and just read as much as you can!
I hope you are having a great day!
craven