Hang in there, sushi. This whole world of addiction and alcoholism is very confusing at first. Take a little time to read thru the sticky posts at the top of the forum, maybe check out a meeting of al-anon or CODA. It takes a while to get the "hang of it".
In any case, it looks to me like you're doing just fine by searching for answers here on SR.
Mike
Moderator, SR