Hi Mr. DrySpell! It is a vicious cycle and it sucks you up and spits you out every time. What helps me is ALOT of internet research. Read up on all the horrible side effects. Alcoholic Liver is one way you don't wanna go out. I recently had a dear friend die alone from choking on his own vomit. He had checked into rehab...that was a flop for him. Just threw in the towel..overdid it one night and thats the end of that story. He would have been 53 on 11/17. I cried. Got angry. Then put it in my back pocket in the form of a mental note to use any time I may get the urge. This SR group is one of if not the BEST for support and I have been checking out ALOT of sites. Hang in there..I think you just have to get it in your head ANY way you can that alcohol is no longer an option. I will look forward to seeing your daily success reports! Remember..your family loves you. I bet they will be a great source of support as well.