Ok so it has taken me all day to pluck up the courage to tell you all that I failed. Last night friends were talking about ABF and how he is "battling with divorce issues again", "feels I am too needy", "that I am so intense", "that he is under so much pressure" etc and they felt that I need to accept his behavour for what it is and to understand that is him and he is hurting at the moment. SO.........I felt like such a horrible GF for giving him stick via text and calling it off (he has never responded) and sent him a text apologising for my behaviour and saying that I am intense given the circumstances and I am sorry. Well that was about 10 hours ago. I have had NOTHING IN RESPONSE.
I must say two things have hit me:
1. He is my drug - could I be addicted to him? If I cant get my fix then I get really down until I get my fix again?
2. That I could not have been so important that he has not even responded.
So now I sit here - desperately reading threads on this site just trying to "come right" myself. I dont understand WHAT the pull is that he has on me?