Thanks for your supportive words, all. I am so frustrated/depressed right now that it's really difficult to keep things in any sort of perspective. Your responses also pointed out something to me, which is that I tend to be hypersensitive about everyone around me and I need to quit doing that so much. I've always thought I was some kind of mind-reader, I guess. I read things into peoples words and actions all the time to the point of paranoia. A lot of people (people I hope don't know about my drinking) have been using the expression "take care of yourself" lately, and it all began after my grandmother died. Now they know I'm moving and splitting up and I hear it several times a day. I know it's twisted, but I read into even THAT and feel like it's code for "we know you're a giant alcoholic failure." Talk about projection! Geez Louise. I guess I need a deep breath once in a while.