I don't know your husbands story, but a lot of my friends and family just don't get addiction Stella.
A lot of them can party hard...but they can stop.
Drinking/drugging is an aberration for them.
It was my life.
A lot of them didn't get that when I quit drinking, I quit everything.
My problem was me, not alcohol, or pot or whatever.
I think people without a problem just don't need to think that deeply.
Maybe it's no more mysterious than that, Stella?
Give yourself a chance to inhabit your sober skin, and your husband a chance to get used to it too.
My advice is don't be jumping to the last page of the book just yet - stay in the day...keep the focus on you for now
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