Way I see it Pas is that sobriety was an awakening for me. My eyes opened to everything. I began drinking to tolerate and cope and one of the main problems was a verbally/abusive marriage. So I kept drinking and blocking it all out but guess what? The problem didn't go away and I became completely unproductive. In those years I became a raging alcoholic living by the bottle sadly.
I am glad the blinders are off and you can see clearly now. Sobriety is about change. No more self destructing behind a bottle.
Keep sharing. Its a positive beginning for you my friend.