D, honey, please don't leave here and please don't give up on yourself. I too relapsed over and over and thought I was hopeless. I WASN'T hopeless, I just kept trying and finally got it. You can too. Please don't leave us. I love hearing from you. Please don't cut yourself off from us. We're here to support you. That's why we're here... and we don't shoot our wounded, ya know.