Hi Saliena
I agree with Anna - recovery means change.
For me, it meant there were certain places I could not go and certain people I could not be around if I wanted to stay sober. Period.
For years I struggled with that - I did NOT want to change my life, I just wanted not to drink...and truth be told most of time I just wanted to not drink as much...
I was on a hiding to nothing.
I finally realised alcohol is just no good for me ever...and I realised staying sober means more than anything else to me, because without my sobriety I'll lose everything else.
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