Scared1,
Certainly take a look at the pamphlet the Carol and Tom have referenced. It's a good start. I've said on here before that I think it leaves a lot to be desired, and even has some things contrary to our common solution, but you needn't worry about that right now.
The solution in AA is to have a spiritual awakening as the result of taking the 12 Steps. That solution gets internalized by two alcoholics working closely together. Sponsorship is critical. The main criteria for a sponsor is that they are alcoholic, like you, and that they have had a spiritual awakening as the result of the Steps. Very little else matters.
If they have those two things, hopefully they can help you see the truth about yourself.