Its scary stuff right.?..........life in the wide screen.
Recently i was in contact with a guy just about to leave primary care/treatment and feels the same....exactly the same......scared the bottle is gonna fall out the sky and pour itself down his throat.......very fragile and frightened.
Try to relax.........have a set of things you want to do for sustained recovery and contentment.
I suggest........strongly suggest these go at the top of your list.
Connect immediately with a local AA group...you can call regional AA and ask if it possible for someone from you local group to come see you before you leave....and if possible tag a ride to the meeting..
ASAP.......Ask someone at that group, if they will guide you through the BB and take the necessary steps to recover from alcoholism.
Someone with experience in doing this....and someone of the same sex is preferable....
If you get no response then try another meeting.....
Use SR as a spring board for information and experience of the 12 steps...loads of girls on 12 step support whom would only be too happy to share there experience with you..
Dont worry too much about talking/sharing at a meeting yet......it will come and your be able to share your experience with the current step your on..
Oh and nancy.............welcome to SR........you are not alone.