Hi Bliss
JC here - alcoholic. You've found a helpful place. A lot of friends and advice to be found here. I learn something new everyday. You're right about the f2f meetings. Help me enormously. I can relate to the "cycle" so well. For years I would binge for three or four days - feel terrible and stop for three days - sober up then start again ..... crazy. But slowly now I'm beating this.
Great news that you've taken the time to post here. Shows that you want to quit and stay stopped. Great move. Welcome.
much love
JC