87 days and ????
87 days and I feel worse than ever. don't feel connected to the meetings. working on step 2 and feel no spiritual connection to anyone or anything. Feel totally disconnected. Things are going good, just got my own place, school is going good, went on a few dates (know I really shouldn't) Just thinking I could get away with drinking a bit and there will be no repercussions, just need to escape myself. sure, that's what I said before and relapsed for a year after that.. ugh.. so, frustrating. What is the deal here… someone suggested I throw myself into my NA program, as far as service.. afraid to be accountable though….. thanks for reading.