I thought a lot about canceling the visit I had let him plan for our youngest son's birthday, but in the end I couldn't do it. My son is so excited to be seeing his dad, and my XAH has been calling to talk to them and give me updates about his recovery. I'm listening to his updates and steering the conversation only to the fact that when he gets out in a couple of weeks that visitation cannot change right away. All my concerns for my boys are still there. He's saying all the right things right now, without a doubt. I'm completely positive he's not drinking right now and that he's taking the right steps to get better, but that doesn't change the fact that he can relapse at any point.
This is all very scary! I still want for him to get better, but luckily I'm aware now that he needs to do all the work on his own....I can't control it....I get it. I can however ensure the children are safe until I trust him 100%.