Hey there you!! I can't call you a doormat either lol. Many kudos to you for the way you've been handling this, you sound like you have a great head on your shoulders. I know it's hard when you have to be away from someone that you really care about, it hurts when you have to see the way things really are. Because alot of times you don't like what you see. The anger and resentment can be overwhelming, I speak that from my own experience. In the beginning though anger seemed to be the only thing that kept me breathing every day. That can be good in a way, esp in the beginning when the hurt is so raw. Eventually you'll get to a point where you don't want to be so angry and the hurt, although it's still there, it'll be a little easier to take. It takes time though, I'm learning that. Have you considered Alanon? Give a meeting a try, I think you'll really enjoy it. Stay with us and let us know how your doing. We know what your going through, let's help each other.
Hugs! Teggie