Thanks for the warm welcome, everyone.
I'm glad to hear you don't think I'm crazy. I still feel invincible and like I could never become a full blown alcoholic but whenever something starts causing problems, it's time to change it. And plus that's probably how everyone feels at first.
So told my friends that I'm going to step back from it all. Will not abandon anyone completely, but just can't do it any more like this. I really hope this doesn't mess up my roommate who I've been best friends with since grade school. He's in a slightly worse place than I am right now in this whole situation.
And that's a great point about there already actually having been consequences. You're absolutely right. It's so easy to laugh off things like spending money, acting like an idiot, etc. And I also never thought about who would put up with sloppy drunks. That's a great point. It all feels like a big joke, party time haha everyone wasn't that funny, let's send each other funny pictures on Monday.