Julez,
Glad you checked in with us. I did the "moderation" thing for four and a half years, and it didn't work out so well. I really think that once we reach a certain point, there's no going back.
Just don't continue the experiment indefinitely if you continue to have problems. I stuck with it WAY too long because I wasn't being honest with myself. SOMETIMES I could control it--for brief periods, but not reliably or on a consistent basis. And I found myself getting more and more depressed.
Best of luck!