Hi Lilly,
All my friends go out to the bars and drink every weekend. I honestly don't even know what I am going to do with my free time now. I'm trying to find a job, in addition to school, and I'm just going to try to stay busy with work, school, meetings, and other activities. I've only been to one AA meeting so far, but I'm going to keep going and hopefully find a sponsor. I did some research and there are meetings for young people too, I think I qualify as a young person? (I'm 22).
Next weekend, I'm supposed to go to a Halloween party, but honestly I just don't think there is anyway I can go and not drink. It's funny too because I was the same way. I thought it was "cool" how much I could drink and how I could drink as much/more than my guy friends, even though I'm very small. It probably was not a good thing that I could drink that much.