you never know the outcome. but you do know (i hope) that you have complete and total control over your situation, and the strength and ability to come out of this painful, stressful place into happy, healthy, and better one, with your two loving babies.
i am wishing you all the courage in the world.
joey, the fact that you say if someone helped you help yourself that things would be different, sounds like you haven't come to terms with the fact that you are responsible for where you are, no one else. why are you blaming others for your own situation, if you have a therapist and are recovered? have you talked to your shrink about feeling as if others not helping you get help is why you are where you are today?
((edit: sorry, joey. after reading your other posts, i see i assumed incorrectly, and that you are trying still to be sober. i wish you the best of luck, and strength in your journey.))