thank you for your posts.
I still struggle with this, as my ex ABF has not had a drink in almost 9 months. But he is not committed to a program of recovery.
I thought things would be better when he stopped drinking. But all of the negative behavior stayed with him. And it made me scared. So I am alone now.
I saw a movie recently...love those old movies. Tony Curtis and Frank Sinatra.
Tony Curtis was a user, no depth whatsoever. Frank Sinatra was a sweetheart. Natalie Wood was the love interest.
It's WW2, and at one moment of rare self-awareness, Tony Curtis says to Frank, " When you want something, you weigh it out in your mind, you think about how your life will change if you get it, you think about how others lives will change, what it will mean to everyone. When I want something, I just figure out what I have to say to get it, and then I say it."
That's my exABF. Those words really hit me. I guess it's all just my journey of letting go. Not ready yet. Working on it. I still have not given up the dream of my happily ever after.
I thank my HP for bringing me to this site.