Not sure how to put words of encouragement to such posts.
Thoughts of how I would handle such things wouldn't help *LOL*
So I will just say
WOW! you sure have my respect in how you handled this.
Great job.
And yes to that part about being with someone but still being alone.
Have felt that aloneness in a group of people but when alone in my room and talking with God have felt the room full of life.