Originally Posted by
DaisyBuchanan 
I still don't understand why he can't just say sorry. Don't I deserve that?
Of course you do. And you know that.
It's the denial, the deep shame for living this way and hurting people so terribly.
I asked myself the same thing five million times: "don't you just know that if you came clean and apologized, you'd feel better, I'd feel better, and we could move on more easily?" was what I thought over and over. It's taken some months, but I've finally pretty much let that go.
What a nightmare. So sorry you had to go through that.
:ghug3