Warmest welcome! Realizing you have a priblem is the first step.
I also woke up with a glass of warm wine next to my bed...man it tasted nasty but I drank it. Actually found an empty bottle under my bed a month after quitting...ugh!
You don't need a plan to quit...but I recommend getting one as early as possible. Check with the Dr about detoxing...read up on SR...we all have favorite sections...I like the secular forum for example...and have a little hope...it can get better:-)