Ya know....there isn't a part of that reading for today that made sense early in recovery. The concept of NOT fighting for what I wanted, NOT planning and scheming to get my way, NOT "bracing" myself for the onslaught, and then not "praying hard" to meet the difficulty........it just seemed so opposite of everything I "knew."
In practice, I still don't have the proposed solution down yet...... I do it "right" sometimes but not always. I'm still a work in progress.