People who dont suffer from addiction do not understand it!!! All your family can do to help you is support you. you are the only one who can do anything about your addiction and you have to want to. I went through the same type of thing, I was in rehab 3 times, my life was a complete mess. I lost my career and lots more and I still continued to use. The only thing that works for me is AA or NA and staying away from using friends and doing my best to realize what triggers me and not put myself in that situation. Its takes a lot of hard work but can be done! Good Luck