It sounds like you are on the right track and going to do what is necessary to have a healthier and happier life...yeah you!
I can relate about what you said about not relating at AA. When I quit...I was 100% sure I was an alcoholic...spending time on SR has weakened that certainty but strengthened my commitment to sobriety ...I don't give a fig about whether or not I'm an alcoholic or not ...all I care about is never drinking poison again:-)