It's not the 'label' I'm concerned about.... it's whether or not I am afflicted with the disease of alcoholism.
Lexie - you're right -- I've got the mental obsession part and I can't stop at 2 drinks consistently. If I could, I wouldn't be here. Good point. How badly do I want to quit? On a scale of 1 to 10, I'd say about a 7. What I WANT is to be able to stop at 2 drinks
consistently!... but I've proven that I can't do that. I can stop at 3 or 4, but not 2.
Nocoincidence and Lildawg - you make excellent points also.
I want to work the steps if for no other reason than it's mentally and psychologically a very healthy thing to do. I will continue with the meetings and will start shopping for a sponsor. I will continue with my goal of complete sobriety...which is also a very healthy thing to do!
Thank you all very much for your feedback! 