Your almost at 2 weeks. You have been through some rough stuff. I remember that for awhile I couldn't read the posts that I could tell were going to be about someones relapse and I didn't like reading them so I didn't...I still don't usually. I had some hard times with it but didn't have a relapse. Just celebrated a year. Someone here told me that I can't let other people's failure effect me. Remember that it is YOUR recovery. Keep going...your are doing well..you did come here...didn't you?