Day 13/ please talk me out of this
hey everyone,
it's day 13 for me and I'm feeling weak...I've been reading a lot of posts here and many refer to slipping...a lot of you have tried and failed and now you "get it". Well guess what this sick alcoholic is telling herself? I have never slipped b/c I've never tried to stop in 6 years. So I am convincing myself that it's OK to slip and get back on tomorrow. I am actually trying to convince myself that I DESERVE to slip. That my slipping is inevitable and I might as well get it out of the way.
I have a high bottom. I didn't lose anything...I was high functioning...blah blah blah...point being...I was drinking more and more and I know where I was headed. I don't know if I can do this the first time around. I may need to screw up to prove to myself I am hopeless. Please...any feedback is welcome b/c I know I am NOT thinking straight and I trust you guys. Thanks for reading.