When I was pregnant with both my kids I remember saying, "boy, could I use a drink" and in the same sentence, "who am I kidding? I don't want just one drink, I want six!". That should have told me something about my drinking. Normal drinkers don't think like that.
I would never even want to moderate. I tried and I was miserable and I failed the test again and again. I simply cannot be a moderate drinker. For some reason, I was born with this physical and mental allergy.