I drank to get out-of-my-head drunk. Socially I might have a glass or two, but would come home (no matter what time) and pour the wine down me. The only thing I wanted was to get DRUNK.
I find it hard sometimes to think of no drinking forever...so I simply take one day at a time, and get through tonight without a drink.
When I drank I was obsessed with my next drink, couldn't wait to have it and would barely function if I was having a no wine day (3 beers and a sleeping tablet instead though
). The relief of not spending all day in "wait" of my 9 o'clock watershed is unbelievable.
My husband asked me the other night if I still felt the urge for a drink....A drink
, says I, when did I ever just have a drink?!! (it was always a bottle and half of wine).
I wish moderation could have worked, but no, it's not for me I'm afraid.