Moderation is not an option for me. I'm a career drinker. Not one that gets snot faced fall down drunk, just one that wants the constant buzz, just to stay "normal" I gave "moderation" a try back in May after 3 years sober. Only one drink at a birthday dinner out with best friends (best Long Island Ice Tea I ever had) Next day it was back to the grocer and buying the BIG bottle of Bacardi Dark Special.
Yep, like the others say, you will pick up right where you left off. You need to do this for yourself, your baby and your family. Do it one day at a time. Thinking "oh, no, I can never ever have a drink again!" will just cause more stress and anxiety, neither of which you need right now. Be healthy, be sober, get support. We'll be here for you (as much as we all can) as well.