Welcome to the family!
Please please talk to your doctor about a safe way to get you off the pills and booze. If you overdosed,the worst that could happen would be that you
wouldn't die, but would end up a vegetable for life. Your brain may be very smart but it won't stay that way with all the drugs you're doing. I hope you get help to stop this madness. It will not go away on its own and it WILL get much worse.