liliacfae

Hello all~
So I kicked my A Fiencee out, but this past weekend was difficult. Friday I come home after work to him and his friend drinking on the porch. I made them leave (by threat of calling the police). He said he was going to come back, and I told him it was fine if he was sober and alone.Of course I knew he wouldnt be coming back... just go somewhere and drink more. So sat afternoon my mom calls and asks me to stop over my brothers, because he was suppose to come over, and he never has showed.. I go there, and I get there to find my AF and his Afriends... now there is more then one friend. my AF is sitting very silent and depressed on the porch, and he has qiut drinking for the day at this point. his truck window broken out, and his friends tellling me if he dies it is going to be my fault... because I dont love him. right...

Anyway, he ran a hose from his exhaust into his window and locked himself in. Thankfully one of his friends stayed as the rest hopped in a car and left as he tried to KILL HIMSELF... (what kind of real friend leaves you to die?!?!)
anyway one friend had to punch out his window and litterlly knock some sense into his head. he kept saying that he messed up the only thing he had that meant anything, and how if he lost me me lost the only one who even cared...

I told him that if he could prove to me that he could get help and quit for good... then I may consider letting him back. Is that a bad idea?

I am not letting him back at all until he can show me this, and have arranged with my brother to let him stay there... which he does not like, but im not forcing anything. but im telling him what he has to do if I am as imortant as he is claiming.

am I setting myself up? should I let him have one more chance if he can show me he isnt drinking and is getting his life in order? I couldnt imagine what horrid guilt I would feel if he did end up hurting himself, though I know it isnt my fault... but I would beat myself up about it and I know that already.

thanks guys!!