Dallying, your boyfriend's email was eerily familiar to me. On and on with all the big words. He wants what he wants and he is "rambling". Turn down the volume, and listen to your own voice.
You are a smart young woman. You have so much ahead of you; I wish I could tell you how lucky you are to get out now.
When I was fairly new to SR, one of these lovely and wise people suggested I make a list of good and bad, things I loved about him and things that made me unhappy and uncomfortable. Helped me a lot. I love my A very much, but I am taking time away to let him work on his recovery and for me to take care of myself and get some much needed peace and distance. If we are meant to be together we will be. Now is not the time.
You have your whole life ahead of you. I am 52 years old, and I am taking all the time I need.
If in the meantime, someone else crosses my path, then...you just never know.