Thanks for the replies. Hevyn, I do feel a big sense of releif now, like I had a secret that just I knew about. Reality is, most already knew, but I've been quite good at hiding it on the outside and a very good liar for a long time. Hiding is what I've done most of my life which I now have a sense of liberation. I even spoke at a meeting today for the first time which surprised me because I was pretty relaxed about it.