Welcome...you have plenty of support here. I am glad you are sharing and what I put at the foundation of my recovery is that I will never drink again...not even a sip. So no matter what rough patch I hit....I may not have the solution at that moment but I know I will not drink and everytime I have come through sober and I found a new way handling things.
You have a good program in place and you are determined. Don't drink and stay with support. Life is amazing in sobriety my friend!