Hey man. Recovery most certainly will not come to you, that is for certain. Only more pain, suffering and sorrow will come to you if you're an alcoholic and continue to drink. That would have certainly been my reality.
It is possible to turn it all around 'one day at a time' if you truly have an honest desire. If you're done drinking then it can happen man.
Make sure to get rid of any booze in the house. Have no booze around at all. Dedicate your whole life to your recovery. Embrace your alcoholism as a positive thing rather than a negative burden. An alcoholic only has to be afraid if they drink again, if you can stay sober 'just for today' then you can turn it all around and live a truly free existence, with peace of mind, clarity of thought and happiness. But you've got to be willing to do whatever it takes for you personally to achieve that and totally accept that alcohol simply can never be an option, period, 'just for today'.
Get as much help as you possibly can! Remember alcoholism is primarily a 'thinking' problem and not a 'drinking' problem, so whatever recovery program/method you choose, then if your thinking doesn't profoundly change then surely you will just drink again eventually? That is my experience anyway, mate.
All The Best, Peace.