Not making excuses, but that is my only issue here is for someone to set it to me straight, get it thru my head once and for all, that I am not to blame ..
My experience is this: Five million people can tell me I am not to blame. The only thing that's worked is when I've told myself. I changed what i say to myself, about myself.
Try this-try repeating outloud, every 15 minutes if you have to the words you've always wanted to hear.
Here are mine. I print them out and repeat them to myself. It works miracles
I am willing to change
I now realize
I’ve created this condition
I am now willing
to release the pattern
In my consciousness
that is responsible
for this condition
I am willing to release
the need to be unworthy
I am willing to release
the need to be impoverished
I am willing to release
the need to be chaotic
As I spend a few days
doing these affirmations
over and over
my outer effect pattern
of procrastination
fear and self sabatoge
will automatically begin to fade
I love and approve of myself
I experience love wherever I go
I have a slender, healthy, strong body
I have the perfect living space
I am now very well organized
The perfect solution to every situation
comes clearly to me
Riches of every sort are drawn to me