New to SR -I am finally powerless
Hi new here. Finally can see how damaging my drinking is to my life. Able to hide it within a social group that drinks alot- but I finally managed to become the one that's out of control. Getting divorced had a meeting on Friday which sent me spiraling. Usual blackouts occurred. Acted like a dumb ass in public. Fell down and hit my head and had to be dragged home by my friend, who drinks alot - and I have him worried now. I have really scared
myself as I could have seriously injured myself- injured my reputation and horrified the guy I'm dating enough that we had to have a conversation about it. I've had lots of nights like this- but what I see now is the
low low self esteem I have, and the drinking I use to cover it up.
I have alot to lose if I keep drinking. I need to stop.