Hi pw773 - All the good stuff's been said already, but I'll just add I know you can do this and have a whole new life, free from the grips of alcohol. I had 3 DUI's - and still I didn't stop drinking. (I did stop driving, though.) After my arrests, drinking was never fun or relaxing anymore. I knew I'd had it - it just took me awhile to actually lay it down. I asked myself when was the last time drinking had been fun? The answer was - decades ago - and the enjoyment wouldn't and couldn't ever come back for me. Only hell lay ahead if I didn't stop.
I'm a shy person, but once I opened up here on SR 3 yrs. ago my life hasn't been the same. When I got those first few responses, I felt a huge weight lifted from me - I wasn't alone anymore. You aren't either - and never have to be again. Congratulations for seeing the light. Let us know how you're doing.