PW- I know you are scared and lonely but that didnot stop you from drinking before. Fear never stopped me from drinking. At first, I enjoyed drinking a lot till the time came that everytime I drank something bad happened. Slowly, my life was turning to mess and more mess. Eventually, I was fed up with the chaous and mess in my life, I was fed up with my heart aching from the many drinks and substances I used and the hangovers later..That's when I hit a hard bottom. I said I give up. I kenw deep in me that i couldnot drink even one more drink without starting the cycle of bad accidents and I was sick of trouble. I still had my job , my car and family but lost me. I hated what I have become. This is when I truely worked the program to the best of my ability. Thank God I have today one year sober. You can have it too my friend if you had enough. Welcome to the club.