I can guarantee you if you do go back to drinking - say, even just on holiday - you will be smack bang back to where you left off. You will undoubtedly get drunk, and you will suffer all the repercussions exactly as they were before but worse. This I can state with my life because I went back to drinking and it gets worse and its MUCH HARDER TO GET BACK ON TRACK. Good luck, I hope you stay sober. xx