EmbraceChange10
Your story is exactly like mine, except I don't smoke. The people on here are so great. So many of them have helped me understand it's not always how much you drink, it's what you do after that first drink - can you then stay in control? - and that the secret is not to have that first drink ... because that first drink can last many long and pain-filled years. How true.
Solidarity, EmbraceChange10!