Hang in there queentree, you are doing just fine.
What you have just been forced to witness is a horror. Being shaky and crying is a perfectly normal reaction for what you just went thru. The fact that in spite of what happened you were able to keep yourself together in order to take care of your girls is clear evidence that you are handling this really well. Most people would have ended up in the ER just from the shock.
If you need a real voice to talk to right this minute you can grab your phone book and call the local crisis line. They are experts at helping families deal with this kind of nightmare. And if you do not want to talk to anybody that is also just fine. Right now the only thing that matter is that you take care of you and your girls, the rest of the world can wait.
Mike
Moderator, SR