I was prepared for work issues, relationship issues with my loving wife, almost anything, but that dream, the likes of which I have _never_ had before just killed me :-( But... It's over and done with. I had my little mind numbing encounter with alcohol to make it less painfull, All alcohol is OUT of the house and I am back on the road I committed myself to. It was just something I was _totally_ unprepared for. I was ready for anything bad, I was _not_ prepared for very vivid dreams that showed me things I truly wanted to see... Things SO positive.... Thank you Dee for your helpful comments, I have _not_ given up, I view this as a lapse due to really unexpected circumstances and plan to continue my road to life long sobriety. This happened for the first time, so I will be prepared for the second time. Tomorrow is a new day!
Thank you all,
..Mike