Thank you EVERYBODY for making me see.
I had a conversation (with myself) last night and asked myself a very important question: Would you ever be able to fully trust him again? My answer was NO. I am stepping away again. Maybe this was another test for me from my HP. It's the decisions I make that make my life what it is today and I think he would be a bad decision. No, I know he would be.... Hugs everybody who responded! With Gods help I can forgive, but I should never forget...
Kim