I am sorry that you are having this in your life. I know that anger. my mother was an alcoholic,and she drank to passing out every night.
she was a mean drunk, and we were all angry at her, and she finally lost a kidney, from meds and alcohol use. She died at a young age. 62.
Can you go to alanon? It would help you to recover from this anger and pain.
the alcohol can surely make us feel like we hate them sometimes.
if you take care of yourself, you will take the focus off of her, and it may help the situation. At least, it will help you.
is there anyone you can live with, besides her?
take care, and keep posting, for a lot of help.
try posting in family and friends of alcoholics, too, for there is more traffic there.
hang in there,
chicory